Caffeine scatters my thoughts in different directions and leaves me bouncy and aimless. Therefore, I can't study, which defeats the purpose of my caffeine intake in the first place.
Earlier, I went with my boys to Tasha's hotdog-eating contest in 7-11 earlier, and I must say, I will NEVER look at a hotdog the same way again. Pete and Barns finished 5 big ones in 6 minutes. Too bad I left my cellphone in the car so I wasn't able to take photos! It was a sight to behold. Also, 7-11 is a wonderland. So many sachets! So many new chips! So many experimental instant microwaveable/just-add-hot-water/just-mix meals! So many different kinds of noodles! Reminds me of the many road-trips we used to take, subsisting on gas-station food from Manila to Baguio.
Oh, there's this beautiful concept in blogging called filtering. Simply put, the blogger just posts whatever he or she damn well wants, and then what happens is the online audience will undergo a filtering process by itself. Those who like the posts will stay, those who don't will go. In the end, the blogger will be left with a core audience that's truly his or her target market, an audience who is the right fit with the blog and the blogger. Isn't that nice? There's no use trying to put out material that is not you, online. It just brings you fake "fame" that you very well know you can't sustain.
That applies to real life as well, I think. Never mind that, by being yourself, you repel people whom you'd like to attract. You'd be happier and more at ease anyhow with the people who are left, those who would stand by you no matter what, because they know you.
I'm not able to delve on law school in detail on this blog because I seriously don't know if it would be overkill. That's all I'm about right now :| and I should think of other things. But anyway, filtering. A typical day in my life goes like this: I wake up, go to school, review my notes before and during class (because you never know when you'll get called to recite), then I get the new readings for the next day (usually two to three inches of cases), go home, summarize the cases and read some books for reference until I'm all done (usually around 2 or 3 am) then have a blissful four-hour sleep.
These days my reading speed is getting better, so I'm able to have more free time. Still wondering what to do with the free time, maybe I'll go to the gym again. Going out with friends is a MUST for my sanity. Two times a week, tops. Even if I think there are a million things to do, I still go out with them because it would be insane to just study all the time.
Strangely, I'm feeling really different from undergrad. Turns out that law is something that I'm actually interested in. Iba talaga ang feeling ko with my studies now. I actually like learning the concepts and I experiment and play around with them in my head, something I never did in Business Ad, unlike Tim and Bobit who tinker with marketing concepts all the time even if it's not required. Now, I don't care about my grades, I just care about learning as much as I can. Nanggigigil ako sa kanya, it's like a sudoku puzzle that I'm hell-bent on accomplishing.
As I told Larice the other day, it's like dizzizzit na talaga. I've found IT.
Sana lang this IT feeling stays... I positive that it will. When I get tired of studying, I always remember that conversation I had with a friend. We were joking about me not passing the bar. Then she said, seriously, with conviction, "But you can do it." Me: "I can do it." "You can do it." And that was that. No questions asked. Feel ko tuloy, yes I can! Barack Obama 2009!
Ayon! That's what's percolating in my noggin tonight. Fourth of July. Happy Independence Day, US. Happy Birthday Cha and Donna! And Happy Weekend to everyone. :)
